The Epiphany That Broke Me Open And Left Me In Tears. (Part One)
Hello Hello Beautiful Souls!
TGIF! Haha its Friday afternoon here in India and not that that means anything here, but it still feels exciting. LOL It also means that I am officially halfway through treatment. Woo-Hoo Go Me!
Things continue to go well over here for the most part. They have stopped some of my treatment and started new ones. I still don’t mind any of the therapies they are giving me. Most of them are very relaxing and nourishing not only to my eyes but to my nervous system.
I feel regulated and for the first time in a long time, I finally feel like my nervous system is coming into a full relaxed and rested state. It’s being RESET and I can feel my window of tolerance expanding and feeling way more grounded than I previously have.
With that said, I do feel a bit in my emotions today. There’s no specific reason, just feel sad. I think I am starting to get a little home sick. A lot of the people I have met here and connected with have been here longer than I and so they are all getting ready to head back home.
I think it might start to feel a little lonely once there all gone. I also miss the kids (my nieces and nephews) so much! I have deep gratitude for technology and video calling but I miss that in-person connection and physical touch. I cannot wait to go home to spend time with my little monkeys.
So yesterday evening I was out for my daily walk as I normally am. I usually walk down to one of the temples and go inside, do my prayers, and then walk back to the villa and do laps around the pool. I remember just feeling so high on life and full of an immense amount of love and gratitude for my life and for everyone/everything in it.
Ahhh BRB time to drink some medicated ghee-UGH! (lol Will share more on this later!)
Okay back. So, as I was relishing in this high vibe frequency, I was thinking about something my SIL and I used to laugh about often when I first was coming to Sreedhareeyam 5 years ago. No one really knew what this hospital was about, and I guess the way I was already speaking about it (unknowingly yet knowingly-my soul already knew<3), my SIL thought that I was going to some sort of “EAT, PRAY LOVE” (Julia Roberts movie for those who are unfamiliar) journey in some Ashram in Kerala.
The entire time that’s where she thought I was, and it wasn’t until after that she told me this. I remember laughing and saying “Well it wasn’t quite like Eat, Pray Love, but Sreedhareeyam is a special place that feels very spiritual and similar to the story line of the movie.
Now having been here for a third time, this place is exactly that. It’s not your average hospital, it’s a pilgrimage of one looking for self-discovery and a space to deepen their connection to Self and God. The hospital expands over 50 plus acres of land and is surrounded by lush greenery and the most beautiful sunrise and sunset views.
As I was making my laps around the pool, I had this Epiphany that literally broke me wide open and had me in tears. I don’t even know if I can articulate it into words, but I sure as heck will try because I think it’s so potent and powerful.
I’m about to get really vulnerable here with you and let you in on parts of myself that I haven’t really shared before and I definitely know it’s worth the share, because I can guarantee you, that there’s many of you who will resonate and relate to my story.
Love and gratitude were just piercing through my body as I was walking, it was SO intense that I couldn’t contain it and, in that moment, something just came over me and it’s like my entire life just clicked and the last puzzle piece had just fit right in where it was supposed to.
Continued on next post…
